Decision that Leads to a Bitter Sweet Goodbye

On Lunes, Pebrero 17, 2014 0 (mga) komento

               Regrets is defined as a feeling of sadness, repentance, or disappointment over something that has happened or been done. Our life is like a wheel. Sometimes our doings are good but sometimes it's not. When we realize our wrong doings that is the time that we are regretting. There are  many instances in my life that I regret but loving a person at the wrong time is my greatest regret.



   
               At first,  I thought loving him was my best decision because I am already happy just seeing him around. I am happy just seeing him smile. He became my inspiration in everything I do. It's like my world is revolving to him. I am so happy that time. I thought I will never get hurt. I will never cry because of him. 

              Later on, I then realized that those things are just part of his games. All of those are just tricks of him. It was all a lie. I don't know what to do. I felt like my whole world is going to shut down because of those pain. 


               I really regret that because I know that's the fruit of my wrong decision. All of those were my mistake. Now, we are not talking to each other anymore. We are avoiding each other's gaze. We are not chatting with each other anymore. We are treating each other like a stranger. I realized that my wrong decision leads me to a bitter sweet goodbye. 
               
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Things End but Memories last Forever

On Linggo, Pebrero 16, 2014 0 (mga) komento

             

  Experiences in life make us stronger. It teaches many lessons. Problems teach us how to stand when no one is around to help you. It also shows how strong we are. It reflects who we are.

                    In my Junior life, I faced a lot of problems especially friends problems. I don't know what to do when I am experiencing those problems. There's no one to lean on. Only God knows how I hurt because of them. They don't appreciate all of my effort for them. Instead of thanking me, they will just bash me and ignore. They will only see me if they need me. I don't know if I can still call them 
friends but despite all of those things, I realized that I need to forgive them and forget what they've done to me. 

                   There are  also a lot of good memories that my Junior life brought to me. I also experienced many things that I haven't experienced before. It taught me how to make a book review for 3 books. That was an awesome experience for me. I also met Shakespeare, Alighieri and Edgar Allan Poe through their marvelous works.
               
                     I haven't experience giving a love letter, friendly letter, apology letter, thank you letter and appreciation letter to someone. I also haven't receive any of those but I experienced it all during our English time this year.

                    I also experience the different speech activities like speech choir, jazz chant, conventional choir, radio drama and the play about Romeo and Juliet. Before I only know declamation but now I know and experienced a lot of speech activities and such.

                  This year is the best year of my high school life. I found a lot of true friends who stays with me at my worst. I experience how to face my fears because I know there are a lot of people who are  holding my hand and saying "Do not be afraid Mhariel, we will face your fear together." 

                  I also learn how to love. How to smile when you see him around. I admit this year I found my first love. I found the man who's making me smile without doing anything. I found my first heartbreak. English time help me cope with it through the love letter tasked to us. I wrote their my experiences and my feelings for him. That's why I don't have any burdens now. This year is very memorable for me. I hope this year will be extended and together we will build more memories. 
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9 Strict Stations in Cav Sci

On Biyernes, Disyembre 13, 2013 0 (mga) komento

There are different stations or circles in the world. Like in Inferno by Dante Alighieri there are a lot of circles and pouches. The first circle is the lightest sin. As you go deeper the sins and punishments goes heavier. In our school there are also a lot of stations that the students usually commit sins.

Let us start from the gate: our first station. The officers are usually here and also the guard. They are checking the students if they wear their uniform correctly. They are checking if the students have their I.D.s and if the boys properly cut their hair. If they didn’t follow the rules, the officers will give them letters for their parents to sign.

The second Station is the guidance office. This is the place used for counseling. The students who commit a very large offense will be counseled here together with their parents and other concern persons including their advisers and head teachers.

The third Station is the Canteen. It is where gluttons usually stay. The students who eat a lot and didn’t share their foods are usually here. Sometimes even though it is class hours, you will find them here.

The fourth station is in the classroom where the students commit a sin like cheating and dishonesty. Here the students copy their classmate’s work so their teacher won’t scold them.

The fifth station is in the grounds. The student usually left their trashes there. That’s much prohibited. In our school the students must observe discipline regarding the proper disposal of garbage.

The sixth station is the Faculty room. Here is where the student’s with failing grades or problem will be counseled with their parents and the teachers in charge.

The seventh station is the Gymnasium. Here is where the students usually shout and play. Shouting is very prohibited in our school because of the noise pollution. We are not allowed to shout.

The eighth station is the teacher’s desk. Here is where the confiscated gadgets and other materials that can disturb the classes are being placed.

The ninth station is the laboratories where the students usually break the materials especially the glass wares that were used in laboratory activities in Physics and Chemistry. The students must replace the broken apparatus in order to pass the next level.


In our school there are a lot of areas where the students usually commit sin. The students must follow the rules in the school in order to surpass the punishments that will be given to them. 
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A Week that last for a day

On Linggo, Disyembre 1, 2013 0 (mga) komento


Sembreak is one of the most awaited part of the school year. Many students are very excited when the month of October came because sembreak is very near. Before the sembreak comes, many ideas on what to do come up on the mind of the students. But when the sembreak came the students  will just sleep, eat and surf the internet. Some of the ideas on what to do weren’t done because of the change in plans. Some of the students planned to stay at home rather than roaming around.

My sembreak wasn’t fun actually. This sembreak was the most boring sembreak for me. Before the sembreak came I have many plans and to do list. I planned to go to my classmates’ house and bond with them. I planned to sleep in the afternoon to gain energy because I don’t have enough sleep before the sembreak. I also planned to do go somewhere and bond with my family. We also planned to go to Bacolod to see the colorful maskaras in the Maskara Festival and visit my grandparents there. But all of my plans weren’t done. I ended up eating, sleeping and surf the net the whole week end. I don’t know what to do because I already finished my assignments early. Good thing I went to Ternate so my boredom was lessen. The best part of my sembreak is when my crush chat me. Our conversation ended at 1 am. I really had fun chatting with him. He just send me some quotations and situations that I should find out the meaning.


Sembreak is only once a year. We must have some plans and organize it well. We also need to follow and do it or else you’ll end up sleeping and surfing the net like me. We should also finish our assigned task first before doing anything so we can enjoy our 1 week but it feels like 1 day vacation.
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My Hopeless Love

On Sabado, Oktubre 26, 2013 0 (mga) komento


“Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead.” –Oscar Wilde

Yes, I experience being in love but it is only one-sided love. It feels good when I’m in love because I know I can do everything. I am smiling every time I hear his name. I am also smiling when I think about him even though he doesn't know that I’m in love with him. The sad part is I am secretly in love but I am also secretly hurting. It is very difficult when the feeling is not mutual because I don’t have the right to be hurt and to be jealous because he doesn't love me.
 It really hurts, because the girl that my love loves is my friend. I don’t know what to do because the girl is still my friend. I decided to avoid and forget my feelings for him because I know that’s the right thing to do. Even though it hurts, I am still trying my best to move on and be happy without thinking of him. It is difficult to do that because my love is close to me.

Before he’s the one avoiding me now I am the one avoiding him but the difficult part there is when I am avoiding him, he’s the one approaching me. So we better guard our hearts because it is not easy to love especially when it is only one –sided love.

For me love is seeing an imperfect person perfectly.  I want to love an imperfect person because I know no one is perfect but I want to be the reason why the person I love will change. I want to be the reason why he will be like a perfect person. I want to be the reason why he will be perfect for me.

I don’t love because I just need a partner in the future or to be in. I love because I know love conquers all. I can do everything because of love. I will not give up because of love. I can do my tasks better because I am inspired and in love.


I look for a man who is always there for me. I don’t need a man who is handsome nor rich. I don’t need them because I need a man who will offer his shoulder to cry on, a man who will stay by my side in times of trouble and a man who will still love me after knowing the real me. A very thoughtful and loving man is all I need in my life.
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That's Why I love Them

On Linggo, Oktubre 6, 2013 0 (mga) komento

                Teacher is a person who teaches or instructs people and said to be our second mother. They teach us in school and also our adviser.  Heroes are saving people, helping people and protecting people. They wear costumes and they have super powers and super natural strength. But what will happen if you combine teachers and heroes, will they be effective?


            Teachers open a window for everyone. They are helping us and teaching us to be an effective member and leader of our society. They are not only teaching us academically but also they are teaching us on how to be independent. They helped us to get over with the things that are pulling us to evil. They are also saving us from addiction like computers, cellphones and especially being in in a relationship. They are also pushing us to the things that will really help us and make us an effective leader. 

I really admire the teachers who are still there and giving their best for their students like me. I want to thank God for giving us our teachers who are there to guide us and to love us. Teachers are the best heroes. No one can ever replace a teacher, our second mother.



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Learn to Forgive and Forget :)

On Sabado, Setyembre 14, 2013 0 (mga) komento

The easiest way to forgive is to forget. Sounds cool right? They always say that line. For me that is true. Many people said that they had already forgiven the person that hurts them but actually not. They are only saying it so that their guilt feelings will vanish but still they can't admit  to their selves that they haven't forgiven that person because the pain remains in their heart and that pain is not yet forgotten. We must forgive the people that hurt us even though the pain in our heart is very deep. We must forget what had happened so that we can say that we had already forgiven them to the things that they had done to hurt us accidentally or intentionally. 
 
I already experienced being hurt by many people especially my classmates whom I trusted the most. I didn't expect that they would hurt me. I really felt betrayed when they hurt me because our friendship grows deeper before the time they hurt me. I learn how to forgive because I can't take the pain anymore. I forget what happened and act normally. Now, that we had our reunion, I didn't feel betrayed anymore even though we are not friend anymore because I already forgive them. 
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